…woke up in the middle of the night….

 

Woke up in the middle of the night gagging.  How long will this go on?  I am like a smoker that started at 16.  How close to death will I need to go ’till I change my unhealthy ways?  Will I be like a smoker that still smokes, even when half my lungs are removed?  I got the tools, the wisdom, I got to turn around my life.  How low do I have to go?  I truly pray I can turn around before “no return”  

Breaking these habits has to be my top priority.  I am angry with me.